The Story that changed my life......

I Went up to Oaktown to visit the Bean. I do this quite often as she is my granddaughter. So nothing different then the usual stuff food and games. Saturday 3am my phone rings it is the Local Police Department. To try to make a life altering call simple..... your partner has made a reckless decision and you must return home. This involved guns and our friend (NOT) Booze. 

So home I go. When I returned home he was in jail and I had an important decision to make. I will go into this further once I get this all caught up to what's going on today. So 25 years of marriage lost in 25 seconds snap your fingers that's how fast my life changed. The year that followed this crisis was probably looking back at it one of the most emotional things has ever happened although I've had a lot of stuff happen.This event was what changed my life in ways I could not have imagined. It may of course  seem like a rush but file for divorce I did  the day after the event. The next project grab my partner's  belongings as much as he would need to get along put it in his truck and drop that and the keys off at the jail. My daughter came down from Oakland as emotional support and I couldn't have been happier at the time of course me being so brave and so strong you didn't need anyone. But the day I went to the jail I saw my partner was heartbreaking. There's a part of my story I don't make public because anonymity is everything to me but I've done a sober member of AA for 38 years and drinking is something that I will not tolerate what is that something you ask? Drinking as an active alcoholic. But just so that you know he was aware of this and I do not want to be categorized as a heartless b****. And my partner understood he knew the coincidences of his actions and accepted them probably didn't want to but did. So that's the story to start and get us back on track with our website life and letting you people know what's going on. Some of these posts will have pictures some of them won't because there are many things that I did not take pictures of which I'm sure everyone will be glad. Another thing I will not do is name names because this is my story and it is not my place to tell someone else's part in my life. 

Back and Catching Up

I had no idea I had abandoned my Blog but sure enough I did. The Cancer and the Covid took me for a loop. After the cancer I have decided to close my Jam Business and truly retire. I still do a lot of preserving food and my website with all the recipes is here. 

Come by Canarella if you need any tips, tricks or recipes for preserving food. I have everything from canning, fermenting, dehydrating the list goes on and on. 

I just made some delicious Three Bean Soup yesterday for the long winter coming. That is kind funny to say here in Southern California. Today I am working on some Lemon Marmalade. The lemons and oranges are from our own garden. 

Citrus Pride Jam So the next question for Lani is:

What will you be doing with your time? 

Getting back to doing my usual stuff but a little less since the cancer and this virus are insane.

The cancer is in remission and the Heart Disease well it is what it is. I have torn myself out of the "There is no Future" to the reality of "Each Day is a Gift"    But the hair Good Lord I look like one of my chickens. 

Let's talk quilting it has been a hobby of mine for over 15 years. I love it. I started when I was working in Camarillo over 19 years ago with a fellow employee. It was at the time one of my just can't say "no" times. I took the class with her an she vanished right after. Go figure I found something I loved.

So off to quilting I went. Met my teacher Miss Rita and never looked back. We have been quilting once a week ever since that glorious class. The quilt above in the picture is one I started years ago with scraps of material from all the quilts I have done and more. 

It turned out much bigger than I ever expected but that is ok. Since then I have finished 3 others. Hey, now that I have decided to slow down I have lots of time for quilting and I got a new sewing machine. Fancy Pants here! 

The garden is doing great since last we talked I have a new raised garden well 2 new ones. One is on the lawn and the other on a patch of dirt close to the kitchen. Good for need it now vegetables. Grew some great tomatoes this year and saved plenty for seeds for next year. 

The big addition to our household is chickens. Yup after a long 10 year wait they are here.

The Chickens ! They have been named by The Bean and that is Cece, Olaf, Anna and Elisa now where did these names come from? Funny thing is that I am havng to get more use to them being around then the opposite. Soon fresh eggs and that is the whole idea they are cute but not pets. They are money savers.  

They have a beautiful home lucky birds ! 

Oh crap my Pa (hubby) bought a fishing boat he retired a few weeks back and decided to go back to the sea. He had a boat prior to meeting me for about 10 years but sold it to pursue a new hobby. Roping. 

Looks like there will be more fish recipes on my Cooking Blog soon! 

A letter from my Higher Power

It is early and my mind has been twirling round for the last five years. Last night I was sitting with Pa and looked at him and said. Did you realise we have never lived alone? Hummm We had the kids for all our years and then Mama moved in and now my heart is a little heavy with the thought of Mama moving on.

You all know the Poor Lil Lani story I have had five years of Bliss to say the least. One day My Higher Power said Lani I have a test for you. I was excited and said bring it on Dear Lord. It went in a nut shell like this.

Good Morning Lani you have breast cancer oh by the way we are going to do heart surgery. Twice my dear be brave. I have work for you.

Hey wait a minute I am going to let you experience a little car accident where you can say HI to all the love ones you lost but once they find your car and wake you up they will pop you into a helicopter and rush your bloody ass to the hospital.

Then just to show you how strong you can be, as if I could here "I am Woman Hear me Roar" we want you to stop being so Gosh Darn scared to drive and get your ass out to Hemet. Why you ask? Because your sister and mama are going to be diagnosed with Cancer. but I am sorry Casey has to die. But you will care for Casey while taking care of Mama and getting her to radiation.  Casey's job is done down there but I want you to know she loves you dearly and sure did appreciate your help.




 But your Mama will go into remission and Oh wait she will break her hip so I want you to take her home with you. She has gotten a little goofy but that makes it a perfect match. Be strong Lani because I could have taken you in that car accident but I told you before if you remember your job is not done yet. That is all for Now.

Have a good Day Lani!

Regards,

Your Higher Power
 P.S. Watch the truck driver mouth ! !
 

I got this letter two day's after I found out Mama's cancer is back and she is going to leave me. I am heavy hearted and very sad. But in hindsight she has spent two wonderful years with me and our family.

As we say "Thank you Babay Jesus"
 

So I noticed that

Scrabble-Heads

I spend way to much time in the kitchen why I have even gotten to the time where I have to think about cleaning and I do after each meal but I have to say I spend so much time in my kitchen. It makes me weary. I do not even have the time to post about all the stuff I do on my various blog's. Well that is going to change. Today I will post as much as I can on each to catch you up with this new year of 2013!

It looks to be a wonderful cooking year. My preserving, cooking , fermenting and baking skills are at a peak. I am out of the scared stage and into the do not give a shit if it does not turn out I will try again. There  are as many sites on life, cooking, etc etc etc as there are words in the dictionary?

My Mother-in-Love

My Nephew Joshua and Stephanie

Linsey and Pa

Me - Mimi and Mama

My Babies

And everyone want to be the best have the most follower's well those day's are over because the way I am going to post my stuff oui I will probably loose follower's. All 7 of them . Life is short and I have dismissed some of the FB friends I had because I am so fricken sick of seeing posters, cards, fables, save the this vote for that I am Holy Shit I am my Father!

I have so much to catch up on

This is only a quick little post to catch you all up on my boring life .....I swear it seems like lately I have not had to much time to hummmm.....Well good news is I'm off one of my medications for the ole' heart and I think my memory is coming back....is this a blog? Who am I? no seriously I am not tired as much and the ole pep Lani is back ....and I'm sure some of you are wondering if this was slow Lani I'm very very scared of what she is like on a normal day.......Give her back the meds....please ...I feel so great and my heart is like anew one really steady....but I would not mind going down for a few more tests with those young and oh so cute doctors......So lets recap...I went and had heart surgery got home daughter came in to town we......Went to lunch....went to the movies saw????? God Damn medicine ...saw ? saw? it will come to me...then we cut my hair...... went to the dog park .........put up a hammock....went to Paso Robles to a quilt show....finally by the grace of god gave Linda her quilt it is her Happy birthday Merry Christmas happy Easter finally got it done quilt let me go get a picture of the park the quilt the garden the the the...........I cut and did sew some blocks another disaster story will save that one......I planted some new vegetables in the garden..... had a bridal shower ....went back to work....And oh my gosh ladies I made a penis cake for the shower and I'm going to show you a picture I hope this does not make my blog X rated...it is so good and it tasted good to....I'm going to go grab some pictures for you.....I will catch you all up on details this next weekend ...Miss U and God
Bless......




this is the New doggies park................Actually it is me modeling with the dogs at the doggies park












The Penis cake for the shower YUMMY......LOL

April Showers Bring May flowers

That's it the giveaway for April will be garden driven I have to go see what I can come up with for things to give......but believe me there is always some stuff somewhere that needs to be given away to a new home...oh yipee....I also need to find a yoga meditation class for me and Linda.....I will explain that later we decided while out to dinner Saturday night at the restaurant that served so much food really the Cesare salad was big enough for a table of 12 we stared out asking for two dinner salads and the waiter said oh you should just get the one for all he sat it on the table and the table tipped sideways.....The place is called Bucca di Beppo fab food but the portions are made fir the Jolly Green Giant....The men had no complaints of course even dirty boy who I decided to start talking to during the dinner....by then he smelt better........I'm still eating the leftovers and it is Tuesday...... SO meditation class Linda (the sock monkeys mom)needs to find her center or something and you know me good Ole pal...and to be quite honest this is going to be to much fun....but she is having problems finding a class's in Simi but you watch today I will find one or I will buy a tape for which we would have to diaper up cause I'm sorry the last class I went to with my daughter we could not stop laughing...... and we had to be serious the Yoga man who was 212 years old and a DEEP India accent ...and I swear I laughed which made me fart which made me pee which made her laugh and so on and so forth.... but as usual I will keep you posted oh and did I tell you I'm going to start going down to the Radio-KHAY station that I use to work at and start back helping my friend Charlye down there god only knows what trouble the two of us can get into ....... keep in mind how famous i already am.....LOL ....In my own mind......Well it is crack of dawn and I need to head off to work.....and today I'm going to meet with my cronies to Quilt it has been weeks I will talk to ya tomorrow.....