I want those ash's Damit!

Ok so we are trying to wrap up this whole 4 months of heartache and they do not have Casey's ash's ...for gosh sakes are you kidding me.....It has been two weeks and I want to sprinkle her already my garden is begging for them...Casey told me to sprinkle her in my garden so I can finally grown something ...She had a green oh so green thumb she look at a plant it grew...I think they were frightened if they did not she may put a spell on them...She had the gift...I have her mobile home all cleaned out a really nice lady that owns a estate sale warehouse swept the place...You know there were so many nice things but they meant something to her and for me well lets be honest she had so much stuff it took three days to clear it out...Mama is feeling better and her hair is starting to grow back she has a little mullet in the back I will try to get  a picture of it is really is funny.....Today we are going on a Target outing....grab some last minute stuff before I head home...Speaking of home I wonder if Pa remembers he is married...I have been out here since August going home only on weekends when I knew it was safe.....I would leave my home on Sunday and say it was time to go home wait a minute ????? The time I have been able to spend here has been a blessing for me...I am truly blessed to have had the time to help Casey through her illness and get mama past her brain cancer ....We have the last appointment at the Oncologist today so she will get the map of the future how blessed she is...I can not imagine what my mama is going through having had the cancer and loose her oldest baby in such a short time....But it is all in Gods time and I believe Casey's work was done and Mama still has more work to do.....Life what an adventure and but for the grace of God my adventure still continues.....I could not figure out why I was spared in my care accident last June but after going through the last 6 months I do know why.....God Bless..xoxo

Go East... Come West... Go East

Ok sorry I have been so silent but good lord my life is a go-go-go even more action than I do on my own...you all know the situation but here are a few giggles

A. I go back to the desert to take mama to the doctor's one morning we needed to be at the radiology doctor at 8 am ..Ok so mama says she will wake me up the appointment is at 8am...I'm all cuddled up in my blow plastic rubber bed....Really! Mama comes in and is all dressed and says Honey it is time to go! Ok That was at 10 minutes to 8 ...are you kidding me...I almost went in my jammies...

B. I had to take Sis to the doctors she was getting sicker and so we are on our way out the door and her legs go rubber on her down she goes..I'm running back and forth thinking 911..911...Some men were walking by the house I'm in tears and ask for help...God bless them they get her up and into the walker none the worse from the fall and they say "Could you pull the car out into the street..She yells no way I will not let anyone see me this way...Again.... Really..I gab her shirt and tell her this is not  time to go all Ego on me....Into the car off to he hospital...

C. I have sis in the Er waiting for a room they want to check her in and I had to go to the car to get her something..? Carmex or something I misplaced the keys I got a bit ruffled and ran out to the hall wondering Holy moly where are they ...Low and behold they were zipped into my purse safe...She says to me Look little girl when you come back I want those keys....Really! like where is she driving to in her condition!

D. I'm at the hospital getting everything set to bring sis home with Hospice and my mama decides she is going to go on a little adventure to Target...She comes out and lost her car 20 minutes later she get it and drives down to Michales she goes in get her stuff and comes out...She could not get the darn keys into her car so she goes back inside to ask help of the kind young man..He comes out and tires an tries to ge the key in she is looking around and turns back to the  young man and says oh look my car is down there...So this guy is trying to open a car that is not even hers! Really!

Well tomorrow is anther day and I personally think I need the prayers more......Mama is Cancer Free and sis is coming home with help from Hospice keep her in your prayers!!! xoxo

So the 1st hospital adventure with mama...

And I thought I would share some of the adventure of being with my mama and my sister....now granted they are both sick but if it were not for the ability to laugh at ourselves we would have gone bananas.....The first day I got there I told my mom she looked like shit  icky....now keep in mind this is a 82 year young woman independent and really packed quite well....So for her to look crappy means something is wrong......Now my mama was brought up Christian Science and if you know anything about them they do not believe in doctors modern med's etc.....Now yes she had since converted to Catholic but old habits do not die ....so I say mama let's make a doctor's appt...no...mama we need...no...If you...no....But i think...no.....Alrighty then I will take your phone book into the bathroom and do it behind your back...Oh memories of the old days.....

Partner in Crime

Ok so off to the doctor we go and he takes xrays etc and comes up with a bruised rib...ouch ok that makes since..mama do you remember falling or hitting something to make this happen...Nope!..ok moving on ..now that was Friday and by Monday I am literally caring this woman to the bathroom....hum must be something more to cause her left side looks a bit well weakish, limpish not right so off to the doctor we go again with my big sister I refer to her as battle axe why you ask because she takes no shit rap from anyone...be scared be very scared.....Ok so we dump mama into the car and off we go back to the doctors and the doctor says..."Oh Jan you look bad" Ya think??????? So into the hospital mama goes with us in tow...

Now comes the fun part she needs CT and MRI's because I believe she has had a small stroke thus why she could not walk good and when I thought she was giving me the evil eye she was actually not able to keep one open....baby hints.....So like me she is so claustrophobic and so they give mama a little adavan this is a drug that calms you.....Not my mama they could not get her into the MRI and the CT scan well as the nurse said "There is a big fist in the CY and it is not the nurses"......SO back to the room the little fighter goes and man do not give my mom drugs ...first she asked me what the hell I was trying to sell her?....It's me mama...your little lani....then tells the ole' battle ax to move her space ship will be landing any minute...  ok then time to go and put this little fighter on 24 hour watch .....Oui then comes the transport to a specialist because she has a  tumor in her head thus the strange attitude.....Ok so I spend 24 hours with her waiting for the transport but nope no bed yet...Then I decide to go home and have the battle ax call me when she is being transported and I can make it to Loma Linda just as fast as they transport her....As you may well think by now I have gotten over my fear of driving since my accident funny how god works for ya when you do not even know......So i posted this just to give you a little in site into our first adventure there have been so many since and I am doing my catch up and letting all my friends be a part of yet another adventure....God Bless...Both my sister and my mama are grateful for my  humor lately because we all know now attitude and humor are the best medicine