May the Force be with you Pass the tea

I tell you I can not believe that I do not post more often. Perhaps it is because I post to the other blogs with information. I use to be so out there. I realize something when I was driving to the Church Tea yesterday I do not take pictures like I use to.



I realize that the last ones I took for personal reasons was at the hospital when Casey was sick. Two weeks later I lost her. Well the whole family lost her.

I have gone to many an event. had many an opportunity to snap pictures but it just has not grabbed me. I wish I knew what my block was?


I have gotten back into doing stuff. I am doing limited gardening, preserving and general thing's. Mama lives here as you know that is a pain in the ass. BUT in the end I will be happy to have had the time with her.  I notice she is sick a lot lately. Her hearing is shot with the head cold she has. My being sick did not help much either.

I suppose that I should not complain but , but , but. I am was the forever optimist yup WAS I use to never let things get me down. Always a smile and positive attitude why people use to compliment me on it!  But in the last year 2 years I have thrown the positive out the window. Now the challenge is to find it and get it back. I have a big yard so it could have fallen anywhere.

You can read all the self help books in the world. Saturday I went to a church tea. The woman who was talking was a Happiness guru. Her name was Darlene Mininni by the way she has not updated her blog in a year. Hum that does not make me happy!

So I was thinking after attending the Happy Tea. I do all the thing;'s this "Dr" was talking about thus shy buy the book. But the women who did buy it made me happy. It also made me take  a long look at who I use to be!

I do the following thing's daily:

Write in my journal
Keep in to Today!
(If you have one foot in yesterday and one in tomorrow how the hell are you enjoying todya?)
Write a gratitude list at least once a week-ish
Have a 5 year happy plan
Breath in and count out
Breath in Faith breathe out Fear

And the list really does go on BUT let's keep in mind that these seminar, tea's and ego buster's are only as good as we make them. These type's of seminar's and talks will last about 7 to 10 day's and then we will go back to our normal thinking. This is a fact unless you were born this way or do the suggested action it is not going to work.

So I am going to try to get back to my Normal hummm  and can someone tell me where the Blue Monkey is?

Just a few things..................

First the Blue Monkey and his wife spend the Easter holiday up at the neighbors (Linda's)seems that the two of them had made a friend with the sock monkey that stays at her house....I'm suspicious because Mrs. Blue is really not to be trusted she did go to a 12 step program after the twins were born to get over her well how do i put it her sex addiction when she was doing it with every stuffed animal in the house and the Blue Monkey and myself were completely unaware until the twins were born they looked not anything like the blue monkey but the brown bears...hummmmmmmmmmmmm but my Blue monkey just took it all in stride and still acts like the little monsters are his...Ok for you few who do not know that I am a woman with a few loose nuts and some screws missing but I love life and this is one part of it that I started ahhhh 10 years ago....The Blue monkey goes everywhere with cowboy and me when we travel I will scan all the pictures of him and make a slide show for you but for now here is a picture of the family ....One of the twins went to live with his real dad.....Let me go grab a couple of family pictures....See they look like a happy enough family but i feel trouble a brewin people and Tom..... I know you saw the snap shot of them packed and at the neighbors in the Easter slide show well I'm not going to worry right now I'm sure things were OK but I'm going to call Linda tomorrow to make sure that there were no shanagins...... I can not afford to take care of any more children ....and I don't think they can go back on Monkeycal the budget is to tight....Well I will tell you about my Easter as soon as my sister gets the pictures done we had to much fun and lots of laughs my sister Judy is one years older just a much fun and bigger boobies........and can bake circles around anyone i know ....well good night i love u all and tom ....God Bless