The first Year

Good morning this post is going to give you a lot of information last night I thought about the fact that it's the end of 2025 and I have been here over a year and had a gazillion things happen. But what I want to do is try to put that gazillion things into one post and move on to now. I'm hoping I can get all the emotional b******* on my YouTube station live as well as everything else that's going on but that's a whole other thing. 

When I moved into this adorable little house I loved it otherwise trust me I would never have bought it but it was tough. Being alone after 25 years is not easy to say the least. I had a lot happen as you read and a lot more to happen as We Know. But I had an aha moment last year during the winter. 

I was sitting in my chair looking out my beautiful front window eating a bowl of soup and being a big baby. My thoughts at the time were    " Oh poor poor me here I sit all alone eating my little soup out of my little bowl in my little house all alone why why why?? " Within a few moments it started to snow the snow fell gracefully down onto the ground and I was in awe of the beauty and clarity of the moment. I had what some would call a spiritual moment others would call it hallucination. But in those few moments I was able to pull myself out of my martyr stage look at this beautiful snow and landscape and realize how lucky I am to be sitting here healthy and soon to be happy, joyous and free! 

It didn't take away the emotions I was going through nor did it make anything I had been through any easier. But it was a little wake up call.

Since the time I moved up here I have done so much. I've made changes to this adorable little house trying to get it back to its 1934 look. I tiled the kitchen and the stairs. I had a patio built on the back. I joined the Senior Citizen Center and began to play Mahjong again that in itself is a whole another story. I joined the gym and it's been a year and I never have gone seriously that's bad not for me physically but for my pocketbook. I've adjusted to cooking on an electric stove I'm even able to do my canning. The garage sales up here are super fabulous. I made a few acquaintances. And like a wise woman said once " You'll never make new old friends". 

In California had many friends that I really did think we're close friends why haven't they called?? But I'm finding now at this time in my life the most important thing for me to do is to allow myself to be involved in everything around me it keeps me busy and I enjoy the camaraderie and the fun I can have. If I sit around and think about what happened yesterday or project on what's going to happen tomorrow how the hell am I going to enjoy today??  

I've done a heck of a lot of gardening around this little home. And I'm proud to really call it my home. Each month I get to go and watch the local soccer team play. I've watched four distinct Seasons, learn to clear out snow from my driveway, got over the fear of driving in the snow. And lo and behold I'm reading books don't drop your drink but I even have a library card. Life is taking on a whole new Journey now and I'm hoping you can join me. I'm going to get as much of what's going on in my life in the last year into these next few months so we can start out 2026 as fresh and not posting about the past.

I did a lot of traveling this year I went to California, Texas and Tennessee.  Challenged myself to drive the coast of California as I haven't taken a long drive by myself since my car accident in 2010 yet another post.  I learned that all those people that I thought were such good friends not so much. And not because they did anything wrong they were just there and there's no doubt they were my friends. But there's also no doubt that when you move you're gone people remember you, people make nice comments about you, people miss you, but people you're gone and nobody gives a s*** except for the fact that you should be doing okay. 

And if you're waiting for people to call you get off your lazy ass pick up the phone and call them. And anything I ever say in any post is only my opinion what I think and how I feel. There is nothing definitive about it nothing saying you have to do it I just hope everything I talk about and everything I do can become a lesson for someone or possibly someone can sit and say "Oh I'm not the only one that went through that".

 Oh and I found a great AA hall up here so I'm still going to my meetings and I just took a chip this year for sit down people 38 God damn years of sobriety now there's a story. Okay so now we know that for the next couple of months I'm going to be going in and out of 2024 emotionally physically and everything else and I'm going to tell you stories about the travels I've done this year and blah blah blah have a blessed day and thank you for being